FOREVERLY

WHERE ARE YOU NOW? YOUR FACE COULD SAVE MY LIFE.

-DAVE RASK "INTO THE NIGHT WITH CAPES ON"

WE IS BROTHERS

WE IS BROTHERS! LOOKS AT US! WE USED TO BE THIS BUT THEN WE BECOME THIS.

OH HOW WONDERFOL!

WE IS BROTHERS! NO HAIR UPON OUR LITTLE CHESTS OR OUR FACES. ISN'T THIS WONDERFOL! AND THEN LOOK. THERE BECOMES HAIR UPON OUR LITTLE CHESTS AND OUR FACES.

WE IS BROTHERS! WE CAME FROM THE SAME BELLY. WE USED TO BE ROOMMATES. UTERO-MATES. NOW WE IS BATHMATES. FOREVER BROTHERS!

LET'S GET CLEAN!

LET'S CLEAN BECOMES BROTHERS!

OH MY BROTHER. HE IS DEAD.







...OH MAN...

STAR PILGRIM

I. BEING A SEEKING SEEKER THE SEEKER SOUGHT THE TREASURE

First you turn your body into gold. Call it Alchemy. Fusing the idea with the essence. The essence is a small dark cave. Self-sustaining light. The light is where gold comes from. Take turns polishing the gold. The process of turning bodies into gold takes the shape of a crucible. The crucible is filled with molten body. Call it Geyser. The reconfiguration of stars, the shaft of light is led to its proper resting place. Run light through, the crucible forming. The body, then, is filled with light, so that turning a mountain chamber, I send out a triangle.


II. BEING A DREAMER DREAMER THE DREAMER DREAMT OF PLEASURE

Sending out triangles the body turns anew. The chamber and the self-sustaining light. The more triangles, the more gold. Okay, okay. Now in there. In the deep. There is the cave which is small and is dark. There is the cave in which is Geyser. Geyser is a parallel. The match of it is Comet. Comet is a path of burning space matter in the void. Geyser is a path of exploding water on the earth. The way that Geyser was led here was Triangle. In the stars the geometry was sound. The path was made clear and its spirit channeled above the face of the deep.

III. BEING A SLEEPING SLEEPER THE SLEEPER SLEPT IN LEISURE

The crucible is a body filled with fire. When a body is filled with fire, fire must issue forth. Fire must collapse the remnants. With this: a train is born. A train is the only thing. It does not stop until it has reached a place. It is the only path for itself. It is something between Geyser and Comet. The path between sent out Triangle falling from the sky, rolling across the entire country. The path of Triangle rolling across the country formed a crucible into the land and filled it with its body. Laid out in reconfiguration. Minerals reconfigured and laid out, taking the form of train tracks and the only thing. The only thing continuing forever.

SUNDIAL

it seems the east is changing

the earth is becoming something else

i am standing very still on the earth

i am sitting on my bed in my room

it used to be the sun came in through these windows in my room

now it seems the sun comes in through these windows in my room


the earth is changing, these things happen

eventually the earth will change so that east will no longer be east



it used to be polaris that was the north star

then the earth changed and now it is some other star

and so my body is changing

and the east is changing

and this must be okay.

by the time the changing is finished, by then my body will have also have changed.


in the morning there are new shadows

that my body is making.

asking the body what shadows

it is making is useless.


the body will do as the body will do.


there is no use treating the body as a sundial.

there is nothing certain about the body except

that using the body as a sundial will change.



i find my body in a dark room

and my shadow drapes across it.

being velvet i am turned dark:

this is a reoccurring dream.

GROCERY

I. The disabled elderly couple follow each other through the store in wheelchairs. One of the wheelchairs is motorized. The other is not.

II. The woman with crazy eyes and dark jelly hair says to the young man "God, the coke was so good back then..."

III. The unaware co-worker makes sure to say goodbye to everyone when she leaves.

IV. When the morning is cool, the supervisor leaves the sliding doors open. The employees gather around it.

V. The assistant manager is a wise old woman. When she is dead, what will happen?

VI. Meeting time. The young man is late. Oh no, he is in trouble.

VII. Working more hours is choosing to be shit on. It is also choosing to make enough money to leave town. Which one is better?

VIII. Hungover.

IX. Dead in the head. Off work at 3. What is there to do anymore?

X. The young man wakes up in the morning. He has work at 4. He lays in bed all day and reads comics.

THINGS TO DREAM ABOUT

1. apples and snow

2. thatchwork of branches

3. bukowski

4. smoke on water

5. cobblestone

6. notebook

7. glass of scotch

8. underneath stairs

9. black haired woman

10. full desert moon

LITTLE JESUS COMES TO TOWN

WHEN LITTLE JESUS COMES TO YOUR DOOR YOU FIND THAT YOU ARE NOT SURE WHAT TO DO. LITTLE JESUS IS WEARING SNEAKERS. HE IS WEARING A BACKWARDS BASEBALL CAP. WHAT TO DO WHEN THE SON OF MAN IS WEARING SNEAKERS AND A BACKWARDS BASEBALL CAP?

WHEN LITTLE JESUS ASKS YOU FOR A QUARTER YOU FIND YOU ARE NOT SURE HOW MUCH CHANGE YOU HAVE ON HAND. YOU REALIZE YOU DO NOT KNOW HOW TO GIVE MONEY AT THE STORE SO THAT YOU WILL RECEIVE BACK CERTAIN MONIES IN CHANGE. AND SO NOW YOU DO NOT HAVE ANY CHANGE ON HAND. WHAT TO DO WHEN LITTLE JESUS ASKS FOR CHANGE BUT YOU DO NOT HAVE ANY CHANGE ON HAND?

THEN YOU ASK LITTLE JESUS FOR HELP. HELP ME MAKE CHANGE AT THE STORES WHEN I GO TO THEM, LITTLE JESUS. HELP ME TO DO SO, LITTLE JESUS. AMEN. AND YOU PRAY THIS PRAYER BECAUSE ANY TIME YOU TALK TO LITTLE JESUS IT MUST BE IN PRAYER.

SO LITTLE JESUS THINKS FOR A WHILE AND PRAYS BACK TO YOU:

OKAY, HE SAYS. I WILL HELP YOU.

A BLUE TARP WITH STRING AND STAKES IN THE GROUND AND THEN LOOK, LITTLE JESUS IS CAMPING OUT ON YOUR LAWN. LITTLE JESUS MAKES A FIRE AND ROASTS A PIG. SHOUTS FOR EVERYONE TO JOIN HIM. LITTLE JESUS GOES AROUND NEIGHBORHOOD. PERFORMS LITTLE MIRACLES FOR CHANGE THROUGHOUT NEIGHBORHOOD.

I. LITTLE JESUS WALKS ON WATER SKIS.
II. LITTLE JESUS TURNS WATER INTO BRINE.
III. LITTLE JESUS FEELS A LEPER.

AND LOOK, NEIGHBORHOOD SAYS OKAY. NEIGHBORHOOD CURLS LITTLE JESUS UP IN ARMS AND GIVES LITTLE JESUS A BOUNTY OF CHANGE. AND SO LITTLE JESUS AND NEIGHBORHOOD EAT ROASTED PIG ALL DAY AND COUNT OUT ALL OF THE CHANGE.

AND WHAT TO DO? WHAT TO DO WHEN LITTLE JESUS PRAYS THAT HE WILL HELP YOU MAKE CHANGE AT THE STORES BUT INSTEAD CAMPS OUT ON YOUR LAWN AND NEIGHBORHOOD GIVES HIM CHANGE. HOW HAS THIS BECOME THE WAY THAT IT HAS NOW BECOME? SO YOU TO GO FIND LITTLE JESUS AND THEN HE IS WITH NEIGHBORHOOD AT HIS TENT AROUND A CAMPFIRE MAKING FOOD.,MAKING ROASTED PIG AND LITTLE JESUS IS CHEWING AND YOU KNEEL SO YOU PRAY:

LITTLE JESUS, YOU PRAY, WHY DID YOU ASK ME FOR A QUARTER WHEN YOU KNEW YOU COULD RECEIVE IT ALL FROM NEIGHBORHOOD? WHY HAVE I PRAYED TO YOU TO TEACH ME AND THEN WHY DID YOU SAY THAT YOU WOULD TEACH AND THEN YOU DIDN'T? WHY, LITTLE JESUS? WHY?

AND LITTLE JESUS LOOKS AT YOU FOR A LONG WHILE. HE LOOKS AT YOU AND HE LOOKS AT YOUR FACE. AND HE STARTS TO SHAKE HIS HEAD. OH NO, LITTLE JESUS IS REALLY SHAKING HIS HEAD. AND NOW HE IS CRYING. OH MAN HE IS REALLY CRYING NOW. NEIGHBORHOOD HAS NOT NOTICED YET. NEIGHBORHOOD IS STILL EATING ROASTED PIG.

AND SO YOU PRAY, I AM SORRY LITTLE JESUS. I WILL NOT HURT YOU ANY LONGER. PLEASE, I AM SORRY. PLEASE DO NOT CRY. FORGIVE ME BECAUSE I KNEW NOT WHAT I DID AND SO I WON'T DO IT AGAIN, IS THAT OKAY LITTLE JESUS? I WON'T, I PROMISE.

BUT LITTLE JESUS STAMPS HIS FEET AND CRIES LOUDER. AND NEIGHBORHOOD STOPS EATING ROASTED PIG. NEIGHBORHOOD WIPES MOUTH AND STANDS UP AND LOOKS. LITTLE JESUS IS SHAKING AND NOW LOOK! HE THROWS HIS LITTLE HAT DOWN AND HE STOMPS ON IT TOO. AND LITTLE JESUS CHEWS ANGRY-LIKE. HE CHEWS AND HIS LITTLE EYES ARE NOW VERY BIG. AND HE POINTS HIS ROAST PIG LEG AT YOU AND HE SHAKES IT. LITTLE JESUS SHAKES THE ROAST PIG LEG AND HE PRAYS BACK TO YOU:

Y.O.U. A.R.E.N.O.T.H.I.N.G.
Y.O.U. W.I.L.L.D.I.E.V.E.R.Y.S.O.O.N.
A.N.D.T.H.E.N.T.H.E.R.E.W.I.L.L.B.E
R.E.J.O.I.C.I.N.G.

with the space between us
and our heads touching together
we make a sanctuary,
we fill it with our covenant.
we seal it with the tips of our wings.