VEILS

1. When you wake up and your face is married to a veil. When the moisture holds the veil flat to your skin. When the floral lace pattern shows down the length of your neck. When you carry your self through the aparment, through the place where you live. When the window is open. When light traffic sounds rise up. When you watch your neighbors carrying on. When you see mothers wearing veils. When you see policemen wearing veils. When you see veils enveloping entire families. When you close the window. When you remember your wedding. When you imagine the groom. When you think of so many fowers. When you see those flowers appear again within the folds of your veil. When you follow the tall flowers. When the opaque meets the splash of your pale legs. When you still only wear one veil. When you add another veil on over that. When you fall asleep beneath the window with your veil trapped under it.

2. While you are trapped to the window by the length of your veil. While you remember the instances of irony in the Old Testament. While the prophet of the Lord is eaten by a lion. While you imagine your neighbors devoured. While you boil water in a small pot. While you sip tea. While you absently run your hand across your lap. While you watch all the steam collect under your numerous veils. While the columns of the fabric flap in the gust of the steam. While winded salt lights up into circular wind.  While small ships take to sea on the floral voyage. While they navigate from your lap to your face. While you watch them continue their direction east. While you wait for the groom to come home. While you use your index finger to write a poem for him in the air. While you are arranging the next gallery stream. While you write the last few lines. While you the smooth the poem with your outstretched hand. While you await the parade forthcoming. While you hear a faintly unlocking. While you fall alseep beneath the window with your veils trapped under it. 

3. After your mouth has been filled with veils. After you have tied a collar around your neck. After the layers of veil fray under your jaw. After you dream of the sea sailing lion. After you dance and shake with your head bowed. After the afternoon traffic know to look for you. After they watch you adding more veils. After you take on the form of a lion. After you decide to put on a show. After the groom comes home. After you show him all the veils you can wear. After you remember the nothing you got married to. After you're head is swaddled in veils. After your neck takes new form. After your teeth fall out. After you fall asleep and watch your body rolling, rolling away inside the strength of a tow.

LIST OF THINGS I FOUND IN THE ATTIC

1. THE CENTER OF REASON AND OF TALKING: THE HEAD

He touched my head and said that that was the center of reason and talking. I kept trying to drink water. The attic was hot. She gave her brother drugs. Maybe this will help you deal with the anger you have for our father. 

 

3. THE CENTER OF FEELING: THE TIP OF THE STERNUM

The tip of my sternum was the center of feelings. It was where I felt embarassed. First there would be a blooming. Then the sternum like a brass plate for radio signals and the rest of my body obeyed. 

 

4. WILL: THE AREA BELOW THE NAVEL

The area below the navel was will. The attic was hot. I found a small urchin relaxing inside of my navel. He was laying in a hammock. I asked him about his dad. He told me he was angry with him. Had he done the drugs? Yes he had done them. This business with his father was still pending. 

 

5. DREAMING: THE RIGHT SIDE AGAINST THE RIBS

They say a dream sequence is confusing for the reader. Reality is pointed down a long hallway of mirrors. Somewhere in there a human could confuse himself for a symbol. The dream was this. I saw you washing grapes by the river last night. You held them against your hip in a wide ceramic bowl. 

 

6. SEEING: THE LEFT SIDE

Your vision can pass through a candle. It will not be burned. The left of the candle is how emotions are stored. This is the part where you hold all that anger for your dad.

 

THERE ARE PROBABLY ONLY EIGHT POINTS THAT A HUMAN CAN HANDLE

as far as I know there are only eight points a man is capable of handling. perhaps men cannot go beyond that. And I said handling, not understanding, did you get that? The difference is how weight is distributed. Remember all the weight you left on your little brother when you tried to drown him? Pick up. Feel that new thing. Walk home in the rain. Tell your mom your car was stolen after you drove it off a hill. 

 

SIX OF THOSE POINTS HUMANS KNOW NOTHING ABOUT

One of those things is War. There are only three more after that. (HINT: The rest of them are War)

 

THE POINTS REPRESENT A HUMAN BEING AND CAN BE DRAWN IN ANY WAY

The outer form is of no importance..these points represent a human being and can be drawn in any way you want...don't call it the body... call it a Wave. Clean out the heart cage where your Dad still dreams in a hammock thinking about you being born. Remember all the time he waited for you to arrive.

BEACH BOYS

I used to think I was Dennis Wilson

But then I learned I was his brother, Carl.

Dennis & Carl were the only two brothers

In the Beach Boys who were not Brian Wilson.

Dennis & Carl are the only Beach Boys who are dead. The rest are old men.