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i am visiting my brother in chattanooga. on the way here i drove through the worst thunderstorm of my young adult life. it cleared up a little but things got bonkers when a trailer truck swerved and flipped. it looked like a giant bull falling into the ditch and splashing a wave of mud. i pulled over and ran across the highway. i was very afraid that the truck would explode. a woman from anther car was hysterical and kept yelling that the driver was not getting out. we approached the truck and i saw the engine block smashed open and oil and blood pouring out. some other guys stopped and we opened the truck door. a little boy came out and he had blood on his arms but it did not look like it was his. i was very afraid and i did not want to see a dead body so i left. i went back to my car and drove away.

now i am alive and awake, watching a television show about amazing videos or something. my little sister is here too. she turned 13 yesterday. so far it has been pretty great. i have not seen my brother and sister together in a very long time. we went to the aquarium and i kept thinking about drowning. i keep having 'final thoughts' on life, like we're all going to die or something. i keep thinking, i should remember this or something, because soon we will all be dead and then we will not be able to do so.

not sure what to think now.