fuck that cock shit/i like noah cicero

i have just received in the mail a number of doodled and delightfully obscene business cards from alicia pernell after i asked if she would custom-make them for me. they are wonderful and i am joyful.

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i often would like to have interesting things to say. i am thinking, particulary, of noah cicero. i feel 'refreshed' after reading his blog because i feel that the purpose of the things he says and knows about and studies are not to get a better grade or be smarter than other people, but to be nice and live a better life. i used to think he was trying to be edgy by hating Bush. then one day i saw this video and i then i thought he was the ultimate. he has many interesting things to say. i imagine that he has things to say and then he writes them on his blog. in that order. but me, i sit and try to find something to say and i think that is stupid and vain and self-righteous. i hate myself and i want to die.

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i've been reading godel, escher, and bach andit has obssessed me. i read it at work when things are slow. i never thought of myself as an intelligent person but this book is very easy to read and if you just plod along for some parts of it, you will understand it better later. the book deals with philosophy through questions of science, number theory, musical notation, mathematics, paradoxes, and high concept art. i think it has some of the most intelligent philosophical arguments that i've ever read. truly truly mind-blowing things.

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i am moving today. i will be living with three strangers, one of whom i've never even seen.