october tour/i like connor o'brien

this week i confirmed a tour for most of october. i will be helping out my friend danielle in rio en medio with visual and ambient effects and we will also be traveling with rainbow arabia through the midwest and east coast and south and texas. we will be playing at the CMJ Festival in new york so if you are in the area, i would like to meet you. as a matter of fact, i would like to meet anyone and everyone that i can. this includes you. i am very excited about this and everything is falling into place for it.

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last summer i traveled around the country and there were many great and good things. there are moments i remember being in the car and feeling like a sponge, and soaking in the earth and the moutains and not being able to stand it and yelling and whooping. sometimes i can recreate these moments in my mind and sometimes i need help. for instance, if i sit in my car and listen to a specific animal collective song i can see the tetons and wyoming through the windshield exactly. i kind of felt this way when i read butterflies on a wheel by anthony doerr. it gets a little flowery at times, even for me but i felt like something somewhere fell together for him and helped him and suddenly he could remember everything he saw and felt. it felt good to read that. this is why i like it. i think when i become a better writer i will be able to do this at command.

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a few months ago i sent an e-mail to connor o'brien demanding that he interview me. i said "i am not famous nor do i know anyone famous. i would like to be interviewed. you said you would interview anyone and i am anyone." connor IM'd me one day and i happened to be drunk and alone at 3 in the morning. we talked and it was the interview. i remember feeling very self-conscious.

i mentioned this before, but i read one of his stories recently and was very much blown away. it is called i am holding you and you are holding me and we are holding one another and it feels nice. it has a very tired angst that really has no rush to be anywhere. it was an experience to read it. as much despair as i felt reading it, i also felt a kind of peace. i thought 'okay then, this is how it is and i have been feeling this way and it happens here too so this is how it is.' connor is very intelligent and knows things. one time i said something about b.f. skinner and connor said 'yes'. this is why the story is good. he notices things.

i think i will start interviewing people now. anyone. i will just start asking people in their comments. if you would like to be interviewed, i would like to interview you. you don't have to be interesting or unique or special. this will be something like a little portrait of what you look like. then people will know you and you will be famous.