2008

JANUARY

new years day woke up warm in bed and happy, woody allen's manhattan. sick as a dog for three days. started to journal. endless endless snow. sex in my basement.

FEBRUARY

found jeffery heart's art and subsequently the 'internet writing scene', wrote my version of 'night owl', tried to write more, didn't. more and more anxiety.

MARCH

south by southwest. atlas sound, HEALTH, no age, an albatross. saw hanson brothers on the street. partook in a medical experiment, more and more anxiety

APRIL

drove 3 hours from lincoln, ne to des moines to see the tony danza tapdance extravaganza. the website billed the time wrong and we saw only the last five minutes of the set. 6 hours in a car for five minutes of tony danza. panther, panther was born. i began drawing pictures of bigfoot for my friends. 'bigfoot buys hard liquor', 'bigfoot masturbates in the shower', 'bigfoot wears skinny jeans'. even greater amounts of anxiety. 'heartbreak'. katie carlson was a strong mountain for me.

MAY

greater and great levels of anxiety which culimnate in not caring about anything, graduating barely, moving out of my house, saying goodbye to my beautiful friends, hitch-hiking to denver, being backstage at MIA (awkward).

world's largest anxiety attack under a bridge in brighton, colorado after being in the hot sun for hours and not finding a ride, taking a train to lincoln and rolling into the city with the sky all pink and gray.

JUNE

sigur ros in omaha, moved to arkansas, lived in a shack on my parent's property, began summer depression, painted my house, recorded GAZEBO, rode my bicycle, tried to get a job, watched television all day, quite unhappy. stopped journaling, my computer was struck by lightning.

JULY

nothing. ky moved here. we drank a lot. it was sad. i don't want to remember this month, everything was gray. i dreamt a lot. saw HEALTH again.

AUGUST

got a job finally, moved out of the shack and into a townhouse with three strangers, they became my close friends, began to climb out of sadness,

SEPTEMBER

begun having problems with getting out of bed in the morning,

OCTOBER

rode a train to LA and played a show with rio en medio, came back and released an album called VEGA

NOVEMBER

worked more, wrote things, took walks, went to lincoln and saw old friends, everything felt better

DECEMBER

played another panther, no panther show. saving money to move, ideas: portland, denver, lincoln i don't know.