be gentle with each other
in the past few days i have seen my entire little town covered in unforgiving ice. i have been out of power in my apartment for three days. my roommates and i have spent nights on various floors. i have fallen on the ice. i have broken my glasses in my sleep. i have gotten drinks sent back at work. i have somehow strained the little ball in the rubber band under my tongue. i have not showered in 3 days. and on top this, i have had two 'relationship-altering' experiences concerning two very close friendships, one of which i do not think will really survive.
last night i found my last cigarette in the dark. i used my phone to find the last match in the matchbook. i went outside and just as i lit the match and brought it to my mouth, it flickered and blew out. i am not ashamed to say i cried a little.
i mean, goddammit...
mercury is retrograde. this means it will be difficult for us to be honest with ourselves and each other. it will be hard to tell each other things. it will also be hard to write things too and it will be difficult to be happy with what you do write. it is important that we understand this. everything will get better on feburary 21st, after that i am moving. in the mean time, we must remember to be gentle with each other and with ourselves.